fertility drugs

Well, Jake and I have a lot of experience with hormones, fertility drugs and even a high risk pregnancy with all sorts of drugs to stop pre-term labor - a few of which have psychosis as a side effect.

Anyways... at this point in my life, i'm pretty good at knowing how fertility drugs of different kinds effect me and being able to be semi-normal while on them... to a point.

I get mood swings, i'll be grumpy, I'll be hyper one minute and sad the next... but I can logically work through those emotions and realize its "not me" that's really feeling that way, that it's the meds causing it.

Jake and I work hard on our communication and because of it, we tend to survive through fertility meds and hormones with out too many issues these days.

He's patient with me - as long as I listen and keep communicating with him, if I walk around saying "i'm grumpy" and pouting at him for a few days, he can laugh it off and tease me - because we both know it's the meds...

Jake tends to be more attentive in some ways when I'm hormonal and crazy from the meds. He touches me more, he hugs me more, he holds me more, he pinches my ass more... he just interacts with me more. I think a lot of it's to distract me, but also keep me focused "on fun" stuff.

I appreciate that. I try very hard, hormones or not to get stuff done, and to not be a total bitch to everyone. When I get too grumpy or hormonal or crazy, I hide out in our bedroom, read a book, take a bath, play some video games (if I can focus) try to watch movies with him (sometimes I can't even focus on that)

and often, ask for lots of sex. Sex helps... but since they are fertility drugs, my sex drive goes through the roof when i'm on them and I want lots and lots of sex. LOL so it helps that he's always up for it.

The main problem I have with fertility drugs is it makes my normal "self" turn into some uber-ADD type personality who really can't focus, or concentrate on anything productive. Jake doesn't get mad at me for that, but he does give me reminders and try to help provide some extra structure when I'm like that.

I appreciate that even when a little nuts from the meds, and hormones - he doesn't make excuses and he doesn't placate me. I like that if i'm bitchy he pushes me into a wall and pins me there and tells me to knock it off before he bites me. ^.^

usually I tell him to bite me anyways, but that's besides the point. :P