OMG !!!!

I sit here, and feel so excited about the idea of raping Jake here in a few minutes. (okay, by the time I posted this blog, I already went and humped him.)

I got my first truly, super super super dark OPK in my entire life. I've been using them for almost a year and i've never had one this dark before.

I've also never used femera before. After a 5 year struggle of infertility to get pregnant with abbie, I really didn't think femera was going to work for me since clomid didn't.... PLUS i'm still breastfeeding and everyone warned me that i wasn't going to ovulate.

you know what? I'm glad Jake ordered me to take the damn pills anyways and not give in to my fears. even if I don't get pregnant this cycle, to actually SEE a successful ovulation for the first time in my life, with matching signs... well..

it's a brand new experience for me.

I have ovulation symptoms, ones I can actually write down and pin point, a good looking chart with okay temps, and fluids, omg FLUIDS galore, I have so much fluids running down my legs, who needs lube??? LOL and when I say fluids, I mean its slippery wet like KY and is dripping in rivers down my legs... and that's what I woke up to this morning.

i thought i'd peed myself at first.... LOL

That was a brand new experience for me too!!! I've never had fluids like this before in my life... well besides when I squirt, but I wasn't squirting so that was a no-brainer.

It's a possibility my body could still NOT release said egg, and we'll know for sure in 2-5 days based on temp charting along with all the other signs..... but I'm going to keep my positive attitude about this and refuse to get depressed over it.

this IS a step in the right direction and that's what matters.

Now, it's time to fuck Jake. :) We interrupt your normal daily emma programming, to go do the nasty... we will return shortly after a nice fuck break. ;)